One person at a time

Catching up on e-mails as I often do in the morning, with Gracie (my cat) coming to perch on my lap for our good morning ritual, I was reading Cathy Pagano's latest article about the upcoming Virgo new moon (thanks Mac!) and perhaps a bit about what's in store for us in the near future.

I really grokked what she was talking about, and found many similarities to what we know to be happening through our understandings from Human Design (or at least what we collectively want to be happening), which is the shifting of our power from external to internal...knowing that to be of any benefit to others, we must BE ourselves. For those who want forward motion, there were certainly some hopeful statements in her article, but what caught my attention and quickly diverted to my internal dialog was in her statement "to remember we are here to serve our fellow human beings." 

What it brought up in me was this disconnect that I've always felt about  the connotations with 'being a good person/wife/mother/employee/(fill in the blank),' you have to sacrifice or to negate oneself...as is the old and distorted application of the energy, and certainly a pattern within my family of origin and it's showing itself in the form of breast cancer in my grandmother, aunts, mother, and sister.

So what I got in that moment was clarity around my/our misinterpretation that being of service was personal. What came to me was a replacement of the words 'fellow human beings' with the word 'humanity', which is impersonal. Additionally, I also had been conditioned to think that we needed to be overt about it all, yet the fact is, that by changing ourselves internally, we ultimately change the world externally. Our job is not to be running around trying to fix everyone and everything else (especially when our own house is a mess), but to honor, trust and take care of self and to be moved internally to take action appropriately. Only in this manner can we ultimately contribute positively to the state of the whole, as is the case with a single cell...in it's proper function, with everything else acting accordingly is the only way that the body thrives. So how do we change the world? One person at a time...and that person is me.

A minor detail, but a distinctly different understanding for me. Why it makes a difference to me, who knows...but for some reason when I got that it wasn't personal, my energy shifted. Having a completely open throat (no gate activations) I find myself playing around in the meaning of things, and that often the way we say things can be interpreted so many different ways...often looking for the meaning beneath the words. For whatever reason, today was the day that this one finally dropped in for me. Not that I hadn't understood this concept previously, but somehow it landed a bit deeper.

So, what this bit of rambling is ultimately about, is my internal shift and one more thing that got put into perspective...checking off one of those subtle disconnects that through living the question, I finally walked my way into the answer. At least in my version of reality. :)