The Daily Personal Practice

The inaugural blog…it seems that it should have great meaning….beginning it may be that in itself. Enjoy…

Listening to the Radio (JAR), continues to be quite powerful part of study, the personal practice of my life and living my design. I listen to the stories, I feel the ‘aha’s as well as the charge when I get triggered, work with the energy, connect the dots and then seem to settle in to the acceptance and awareness that seems to wash over me. It’s an interesting process. From one level, I understand the teachings of Human Design much deeper…a shift from information and knowledge to real knowing. Whether there’s truth to my understanding, time will tell. The grand experiment that Design teaches. At a personal level, I’m understand more and more about the events of my life, my participation in them and the misunderstanding and misidentification with much of it. I continue to see the gifts in that and am much more gentle with myself as well as with others. The parts that piss me off, become my spiritual practice. To get to the root, energetically, as much as is possible in the moment, and to allow myself to move back to ground…the center from which is not rocked by external forces…that part of me that trusts impeccably and acts in a way that is mine to do.

More and more, I see that we are all living our own personal practice. The Church of One? The Zen Masters teach us to resist nothing. It’s been on my mind, friends have reminded me and listening to Genoa Bliven this morning talk about some of his experiences and how deeply we can go away from our nature, into the ‘Not-Self’ in Design terms. I now understand that conditioning, while we talk about it being such a bad thing, is part of the practice. It’s a place to learn from but not to live from. To know when to ‘let it pass by’ and when to work with it. But is it possible that to learn from it deeply, you have to lose yourself in it completely? Yet do we ever lose ourselves completely? Or are we just lost in it and then wake up to understanding?

My experience, after three and a half years of working with this knowledge and moving thru the tipping point of the deconditioning process of the 7 year cycle, has been to find myself falling into these moments of real understanding and in a way, falling into myself and recognizing that that I’ve been here all along. I just didn’t realize it.